What The Hell....

... is going on?

think about it.

*heart*

i am so sick of love songs.

my heart is kinda achy these days. why do u suppose? i'm happy. yes i am.

so whats the deal?

unsatisfaction? what more could i ask for?

i am childish. i am foolish.

most of all..

i am hungry.

think about it.

Shorties

Due to a busy busy schedule...*cough* ok..due to laziness...i'm makin this short in a way... not an interesting blog today but things that stay on my mind form reading *gasp* newspapers. oh the shock the horror. david must be keeling over by now *rolls eyes*. Drum roll pleaseee.. and the stories that caught my eye are....

1. Aung San Suu Kyi's iconic status increases amid protests in Myanmar. Now don't get me wrong... i'm all for freedom for this chica (notice how i can make a serious topic absolutely bimbotic in 2 seconds flat?).. BUT she's all for this international sanctions and urging her countrymen to confront the junta... YES her fellow countrymen are behind her all the way but does she see HOW much they suffer from the protests that they have on the roads etc etc and the violence. Maybe the freedom they all crave shouldn't start from bloodshed but instead stem from peace?

2. Jury sees the video of Diana's last hours. Morbid much? I think they should let it go.. important ones would be her sons non? They aren't kickin much of a fuss. They've accepted it publicly. The public in turn should accept it too. Kinda makes me queasy to think of all those STRANGERS taking it so personally. Let it rest. Let her rest.

3. In Amsterdam, Sibu the Orangutan has miffed his Dutch keepers by refusing to mate with females and showing sexual interest only in tattooed human blondes. Erm yuck? Jesus do they feed the damn apes weed in there too?

4. I am so impressed that this woman Debbie Cole turned in a bag filled with cash over to the authorities.. $65,000 is a hefty sum. I wish i could be as strong as she was. Really. But remember that Gallo dress? Yes, i still want. And that fringed Prada bag? Oui, s'il te plait. But... GO DEBBIE!!!!

5. Fraternities wanna move away from their party image...say it isn't so? Trips to the opera, wine tastings, documentary film screenings, listening to Zen music and doing yoga instead of pranks for pledges to do, drunk parties and other fun stuff (hazing)?

"I didn't really feel like the traditional fraternity life was for me," said Tony Brown, a sophomore journalism major at Sigma Phi Epsilon. "I wanted a place I could come into and immediately feel respected." http://news.yahoo.com

BOO FUCKIN HOO. A return to the Greek life and what not. They DO remember Greeks had their version of minnows don't they? sigh. Yes..yes. Let's get back to our roots.

6. I am desolate that Valentino has finally unveiled his FINAL season. It was a beautiful line and this last group was of no exception. The red dresses he comes up with...*swoon*.. WHYYYY...haha but to be honest not like i can afford them all the time anyway... sigh..thank god i still have that one red dress. aish. Why la that sexy man (no Mr Ford, NEVER as sexy as you) gone n get himself retired for?

7. And so on top of all this shit, we also have air pollution and all. As a resolution, lets move to Helsinki? Finland purportedly has the high marks for air and water quality, a low incidence of infant disease and how well it protects citizens from water pollution and natural disasters. Nice. Problem is that its bloody cold innit?

Think about it.

sweet sweet fantasy

I was watchin tv and thoughts occured to me...

Life's not one big fantasy of movies is it? we watch them to escape the drudgery of life, the staleness, the routine. why else would we watch movies of fantasy.. where dragons come alive, where people simultaneously burst into a song and dance (though me and vanessa HAVE thought of doing a lil shimmy n shake while singing good morning baltimore at the walk in the curve..but thats another story..)

Life's not dirty dancing where the 16 yr old girl gets the hot dancer.. it's not hairspray where the curvacious cute chick gets the leading sexy (semi gay tho he may seem with a foundation base the envy of many) boy... we don't go around in poufy skirts with taffeta underlays and we don't (definitely don't) have perfect hair with a body frame that pleases the eye no matter the size.. be it size 0 to 20.. there's no romantic happy dance (though i have been known to do the happy dance by adam sandler once in a while) at the end before the credits roll and u sit there all mushy n hopeful n starry eyed..

Cuz our life still goes on after the credits roll..we have assignments.. work.. dissertations and obligations to go to. its no fairy tale where good triumphs over evil because we fight that fight everyday..no matter how little the fight may seem. somehow it doesn't seem as exciting as the people in rent make it seem trying to make money a glorious albeit tough adventure. for us its just plain tough.

there's no blue/brown/green eyed boy waiting at the end of the room in the spotlight with his hand extended towards you for that one dance that will make your life worthwhile (not that i can dance for shit  pennies but i digress). there's no mysterious virile (oh gerard butler) male singing to u about the music of the night (not that i can sing for much either and again i go off topic).

Does that seem disappointing to you? it sometimes gets to me. i love my life. i do. i am eternally grateful for how its turned out so far. i love my family n i'm in love with an exceptional young man. we have our lives ahead of us.

but i still go back to those movies. the romance of it sucks me in like this huge armageddon of tidal waves and i finish watching it with that little spark in my eye. a little gleam that makes me think if only someone would take my hand now we could do a glorious waltz around my living room worthy of a scene in...in. ok i'm out of movies that have waltzes..they must only be in my romance novels (and yes i read them and yes i enjoy them and no i'm not ashamed<maybe slightly> and yes they all mostly have hot sex scenes)...

but again, life's not like that. that's why they're called movies. but it doesn't stop me from wanting to dance all night.. doesn't stop me for craving that moment when ur eyes meet and all you can think of is grabbing him close and doing naughty things to him your heartbeat races with the thought of him close to you. the swallow u do when he looks at ur lips and u know what he's thinking of. how his gaze follows you walking away..waait i'm slipping into romance/porn mood again...

who am i to say others don't have this life though? maybe all u need is money hah.

what i can say is... i think everyone should grab that little bit of magic in their lives and hold on.. be it a gossipy girl hangout time where we're fabulously dressed reminiscent of sex and the city.. a hand holding long gaze-y soft kiss moment such like one you've seen in - insert romance movie title here- .

i do know i have had moments like those..rare though they might be. i remember a night of heavy showers thundering down and me dancing barefoot in my nice dress and he twirled me around and we were breathless with laughter over how much we were in love with each other. i forgot the pain he caused me and he forgot why he didn't want to be with me. romantic though it may sound (big cheesy grin here).. that whole scene played out in my old apartment on the badminton (i know, badminton?? what the hell.. tennis would've been better no?) court. moldy cracks and the risk of lightning.

grab those moments. treasure it. they are so rare because real life doesn't allow you to have those moments often.

anyone have a fairytale moment? (risk of drowning or electrocution added in as well?)

think about it.

Mrs. Chuppy

Long time no write eh... things are different now. i actually seem to not have time on my hands unlike a year ago... i fill time with classes, part time jobs and long distance calls. nifty.

i got a ring on my finger now. sexy aye. now where are all the lil' ho's (and one big one) so i can shove my ring finger against their UGLY STUPID FACES.. i'm not going to apologise for "lying" to them (in the words or a psychotic psych) and saying i was only the best friend... i'm marrying my best friend n if i hear one more slur i'm coming where u are.

yawn.

now i want to address the issues of ppl changing friends fast. what the hell if up with that? what could possibly be wrong with having a "core" group? the group you sms or call when u know ur headin someplace n u wanna see if maybe they're free... i'm being imbecilic i know. loyalty? pfft. who cares about that in this day n age? all we REALLY need is to be the first, to be the one looked at, to be the one everyone envies and wants to be.

Too bad that ain't me.

Love you davidyanglovemwuahxoxocan'tgetenoughdavid

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